hmm. i just read my ex-blog. i was so full of rubbish then! and i still am la actually. there's so much i want to say. so many things i want to tell so many people. i dont know where to start. maybe i never will..

today was.. bad.
sorry Daddy. sorry for questioning you and doubting that you are wanting to go through what im going through. thank you for showing me you care about all the nitty gritties of my life and that you love me more than anything.. i'd be lying if i say i didnt care if you were there, because you matter, your opinion of me is more impt than anyone elses. sorry for belittle-ing you. and thank you, for not holding any of my nonsence against me. thank you thank you dear Father for always holding my hand. dont let go..

i feel like crying. i feel so small. so tired..